In the clutter of the evening...

In the clutter of the evening
I lie awake with life and she is teasing

Her bruises never stay
Her scars always seem to heal
Her beauty never frails

Even when standing in the daylight
You find yourself looking for her
And sometimes when you forget
You're reminded she's right behind you

The bitch can make you mad
The bitch can make you sad
This girl can make you smile
This lady can make it all worthwhile

Breaking in to You

You have already broken my heart
Even though it does not yet belong to you

These feelings I have
Open me up on the inside
These moments spent
Breaks me down on the outside

I stand in front of you
My shoes wrapped in blue
Ready to run with you
But nothing to hold onto

My heart is taking it's flight
Don't want to hold it back,
Even if....for yet another night

Ode to Helenè

Helené, Helené

See the sunshine in your day

Helené, Helené

Prays for the months of May

Helené you bring laughter

Helené you bring tears

Helené for a moment

You take away my fears

Helené, Helené

Hears ten sounds can you wonder?

Helené, Helené

Very bright ‘s your beyonder

Helené where’s my drink

Helené listen to Pink

Helené where’s that blink

Helené, Helené

Can you hear the angels sing?

Helené, Helené

I will never forget that day!

Moments

Moments come

Moments go

These moments with you

Won't let me go

Silently I lay at night

Memories still shining bright

These thoughts of you

Keep me up at night

You are a reflection

Of my desire's perfection

Your touch a redemption

To my heart's lamentation

So be still with me at night

And in these moments. . .

Just hold me tight

BLACK or WHITE

We keep on focussing on the WHITE and the BLACK and who has "what" and "what not" in our nation. When are we going to stop looking at colour and decide as a nation what we are going to do about our problems together? PROBABLY NEVER!!! I say never because our leadership, opposition parties, media, friends, family and neighbours keep on stuffing all things WHITE and BLACK down our throats! How can we function as ONE when our focus and attention remains on all of that which separates us?

"See, It's Not About Races
Just Places
Faces
Where Your Blood
Comes From
Is Where Your Space Is
I've Seen The Bright
Get Duller
I'm Not Going To Spend
My Life Being A Color"

I am sure most of you recognise these words sung by Michael Jackson. I don't give a shit what your opinion is regarding Michael Jackson, but I DO give a shit about our nation and our country! I see it being run to the ground by our politicians. I see no solutions being formalised.  I also fear that not so long from now our entire country will be poverty stricken. I feel like I have no control over what is happening and there is nothing I can do to fix it or help steer it in the right direction. It is as if that little cross I make every 5 years has no significance regardless of it's importance. . .

BUT. . .

I am NOT going to run away
I am NOT going to give up
I am NOT going to stop loving this country
I am NOT going to stop loving YOU my fellow SAFFA

Be Sensitive to Thought

We spend a lot of time in our minds through thought. We think about the future, the past, more about the future. . . ‘that dirty carpet’, ‘the outfit I want to wear’, ‘have I remembered to buy more dog food?’ . . . .We waste most of it however; dwindling in the past and imagining or worrying about the future.

Keeping our minds in the present is quite difficult and when we manage to attain it. . . . what then?

Well after today I would suggest that if something rather unique pops up in your day. . . just focus on that one thing! I’ve been having quite a bit on my mind lately regarding some decisions I have to make. I know what I want the outcome to be, but not yet finding the answers on how to achieve it. So I have put my intent forward and trying not to spend too much time worrying about ‘How’ all of this is going to happen. Usually if I find my thoughts to be in the future, I would rather define how I want it to be. . . If I noticed anything from the past reveal itself again, unless it was acknowledging a lesson learned, I would immediately discard it.

But today I managed to let all of that be of little importance to me. I woke up with a dream I still had fresh in my mind about how some friends and I went on a trip to Japan without any travelling expenses. I grabbed my phone as I woke up in bed and paid my first visit to Twitter.
My eyes were scanning over the first couple of tweets and the first one I stopped at was a tweet by @RubyGold posting a link to an article where Japan will be covering travel costs for 10 000 tourist to their country. I was wondering ‘what the hell just happened here’? .... I had a feeling that this was no coincidence even though the possibility of it meaning that I might go to Japan, had no appeal to me!

I experienced a little bit of excitement as to how freaky this whole dream-tweet-thing was. I had not read anything about Japan recently which could explain why they would feature in my dream. I tried to recall if I had any discussions lately regarding the country, but there was nothing that came to mind! As I read the article @RubyGold posted, I realised that the last time I heard anything about Japan was with the tsunamis!

My day started and as reality kicked in my mind got lost in it’s thought processes being here, there. . . .a little way back then and dancing around in the future. I became upset at certain present circumstances and still worried about how to move forward to achieving my goals. I became aware of where my thoughts were and would put them to rest, bringing my thoughts back to the tweet and my dream. . .

It all came up in a discussion again later the evening with my two best friends on how sensitive we should actually be towards our thoughts. We were sharing stories on how some thoughts would somehow manifest themselves. I recalled how a customer’s name would pop up in my mind and within an hour or two, maybe a day or so, they would call me regarding a project or placing an order. I wasn’t wondering how they ‘were’ or thinking ‘that I should call them’, they just randomly came to mind! A couple of examples from my friends were given how some thoughts even had some impact on the outcome of a situation or putting certain things into motion.

And I wondered how all of this could be connected. . . the same as I wondered about how my dream and the tweet were connected? Science could probably relate it all to energy, but I don’t have a master in Physics so I seriously don’t have the time to figure that out! There has to be something that could explain all of this. . . Once I got back home something dawned on me and for the first time I had some understanding of what change can be brought into your life by being ‘present’ in your thoughts more often.

I mean let’s face it! There has to be more to this whole thing of being in the present moment with your thoughts right? Surely telling your past and future thoughts to ‘hush it’ and appreciating what is around you or currently that which is happening to you can not be all that there is to all of this? That just sounds lame. . . . There is a lot more to it!

I am certain that you have noticed when not allowing any memories from the past or thoughts about the future to cloud your judgement, many solutions or possibilities become clearer to you? The more time you spend thinking of the now the easier you realise what needs to be done! All that is left is to figure out how to get there. . . What became clear to me was how staying present more often, had set a lot of things in motion. Choices made in those moments of clarity by being present (even if perhaps of little value back then), have affected a lot of things currently happening in my life. Things that most probably would not have been happening right now should I have kept on racing between the future and the past and not have stayed with the now. I realised that the first domino has already been tipped over and for the first time I had some belief in what people close to me have said is about to happen.

I realised as I thought back on each instance how a decision made with no influence of ‘what if’s’ or ‘what have’s’ has made a contribution or created a possibility of moving towards my goal without me even noticing it. I might still have quite a distance to go and no GPS to guide me, but I understand how being present with the moment and your thoughts can be of extreme value to you.

So try it for yourself! Even if you just start by becoming aware of where your mind spends most of its time it is a great start! It can reveal a whole lot to you in an instant and you’ll feel a whole lot better than being concerned with what has been or what if tomorrow does not work out. . .

You are my Love Light

The warmth of your Love Light
Keeps me warm to the core
The caring in your words
Makes my soul feel at home

Your Brightness shines!
Your whispers flourish!
Your touch makes me warm!

In your Eyes I see the day
In your Presence I feel the stars
My feet can climb this mountain with you
Our legs can lead us home

Do you see the flower when it blooms?
Can you hear the water share it's thoughts?
Do you listen when the lion roars?

The beauty you give can never be captured
The flavour of your hearts never distilled
The love that you bring never forgotten...



(Opgedra aan die twee Reyneke Sussies)